Yeah Okay

Ok I have absolutely no respect for people who entirely and knowingly refuse to listen to anything that anyone else has to say on a subject

It’s like perpetuating and insisting on ignorance and its not cool in any way

Its a real fuckin nightmare that I consistently every single day go out of my way to hold to every commitment I make to people and to be there for everyone when they need me to be and to do what I say I will do when every other fuckin person never ever does anything they say they will and they never show up when we’ve made plans to and they are never even remotely dependable or reliable its a pain in my ass and Im about ready to just honestly never make plans with anyone ever again because this is ridiculous and its bullshit

I have to stay up until 2 am just for the sake of making sure that the clock on my phone sets back correctly so that I get woken up on time and that is not a thing I am okay with 

SO ANGRY ABOUT CUTE PEOPLE

I feel weird about the fact that I’m not really upset about the wreck I was just in

Honestly, it’s wasn’t our fault so the car is getting fixed at no cost to us, the police officers gave me and Ethan hot chocolate while we were filling out paper work, and idk I don’t feel overall badly about it

“look at all the famous friends I have look at me being friends with famous people”

dddddddddddddddddont be one of those people holy SHIT its so frustrating and its so transparent

please

my dad is making me an appointment with a dermatologist and I am so happy oh my goodness this

could be such a good thing

I AM SO DONE WITH THIS SHORT HAIR!! i want my long hair back but I still was it to stay blonde. also I got this new face wash stuff and its been reacting really really extraordinarily badly with my skin and its made me feel like I have an incredibly intense sunburn on my face that never goes away and it makes being awake and alive really really really miserable I just want to take me face off right now 

(I just posted this on my normal blog but I very quickly realized I didnt want it to be that public so now Im posting it over here)

My friend Zo died about five months ago and last night my friend Becky showed me this thing she was making for everyone in our little group of friends

it’s this picture frame made out of broken pieces of his Green Knight lances from the show that she and Crew collected right after Zo died, and she took these shards of green wood and carved them into these gorgeous patterns and bound them together with the green ribbons we wore at his funeral and found a PERFECT keep sake for each of us that she mounted into the frames under the photographs 

and mine is this picture she took from a day we spent by the lake of me sitting up on his shoulders and it’s pretty close up on our faces and he’s looking up at me and I’m looking down at him and we’re both laughing and we look so happy, the the carvings on my frame are these beautiful curling waves that just look so perfect. And the thing mounted underneath is from the very last night that we all saw him, we were having a going away party for our friend Erin and everyone there was drinking except for me and Zo so we went out and got sparking grape juice to share and she somehow managed to keep that bottle’s cap and attached it to the frame 

it’s genuinely the most amazing perfect incredible thing anyone has ever done for me and I’m so unbelievably happy and it’s not entirely finished yet so I dont have it to show off but just trust me it’s 

amazing

omg also I had a very uhhhhhhhh “interesting” dream last night about a very EX boyfriend

like so so very EX

and I spent like half an hour laying in bed sort of half a sleep and kind of continuing to dream but also being awake enough to be very conscious of the dream once I fully woke up andddddddd

where the hell did that come from it was so weird!!! I dont want to dream about THAT ex like of all the exes please just not THAT one

what a weird thing ugh